Dark Night of the Soul

It happens to all of us as we journey deep into the realms of art or spirituality at some point. Heck it could happen on a daily basis for some.

What is a dark night of the soul?

It is when you feel lost in the dark. When you think you may not be going the right way with your art or life. It is a lapse in faith and a questioning of judgement. In short, it sucks, it's a bad time.

It happens to me. As a young man I'd say it happened a few times that lasted for months on end. These days it happens to me in sporadic bursts that I have to ride out.

"Clearing Up" (8x8) by M Francis McCarthy

Is it just depression? 

Maybe, but it's probably much more than that. 

It's a necessary readjustment of the self at a core level. All things change as they progress from their beginnings to their end. We must change when it's time as well.

Not one thing in this universe is stationary for very long. Even seemingly permanent rocks when viewed through an electron microscope are hives of energy disguised as solid mass.

"Clearing Up" (5x5) by M Francis McCarthy

What can you do when you feel lost and unsure of your path through the darkness? 

I believe it's best to stay your current course in those tough times while absorbing and contemplating the shock of being unsure.

All the meaning that's felt by you in this life has been created within yourself, by you. Others may feel as you do about any perceived meaningful thing, but you cannot appreciate the meaning in anything without first opening your heart and mind to it and accepting that it may indeed be meaningful.

How does this bear on our topic today?

Simple, You have picked an apparently meaningful occupation and you have given it your attention. If you're despairing because things have gotten a bit sticky now, it's probably best to just see the hard time to it's natural conclusion. 

If you jump ship in a search for something else while experiencing the dark night, most likely you will fail in your next endeavour also.

Better to keep your head down and keep working until the light starts to break on the horizon and you come into a new day filled with the light of understanding.

A bit about today's painting: "Clearing Up". Really, another sky painting. I never tire of painting clouds. I've considered doing paintings with nothing but clouds and no landscape but somehow I can't see it working. 

"Clearing Up" was painted last year and is part of the series I embarked on early in 2012. I'm closing in on finishing that series in the next few months. It's been a lot of work and I've certainly had a bit of a dark night of late as it seems to be dragging on and I have other paintings I want to do. No worries though I'll persevere...

Cheer,